i've been thinking that i need to take a blogging break. now it seems that everytime i say "i'm taking a blogging break" that i begin to blog a lot. however, i've been feeling like totally taking the blog down. i can't quite put my finger on why. but if i'm not "here" tomorrow don't worry. i'm fine, i just needed a break. i think i'm finding that i don't like being "semi-anonymous" and concerned about who might be lurking about.
if i'm going to blog, i want to be "out." otherwise it's just strange for me. i guess it feels a bit like hiding and that's not who i am. i may lay low at times but i need to be exactly who i am rather than hiding behind a facade.
perhaps it has to do with shaking the dust from my shoes. after the incideent with the small town in the middle of nowhere i've felt their dust still clinging to me. this blog is part of that dust. so i'm taking a leave of abse…
i haven't been paying much attention to the blogosphere lately. neither reading nor posting much at all. things feel really crazy. good but crazy nonetheless.
Joel lives in KC most of the week and visits on the weekends. the girls and i had a pretty good routine but there has been a lot of TV watching since my mom generously brought us one. it's both a blessing and a curse. to add to that chaos, i bought a PS 2 from my nephew. i haven't unveiled it for the girls yet. i want to get a DDR pad (dance dance revolution) and game and see if that might be a fun way to exercise.
today i had a migrane--it's been several years (thank God/dess!) and after a few hours it began to wane. i was really lucky. i've only had 3 or 4 but they tend to be severe (i've even experienced temporary paralysis). thankfully, they are spread across many years and i know when they are coming on because my vision gets spotty. i had been at a hospital visit and as i was leaving noti…
i was in for quite a suprise this morning at the small church. they "pounded" me. people from the church brought me a generous amount of groceries!
it's a very old tradition and i had no idea anyone still did it! it was super sweet and kind. they said that from time to time they will get a feeling and pound me--that i'll never know when it's coming.
i was in awe. these are some amazing people. i think i am being ministered to more than i am ministering to them!
finally a piece of uplifting news! as i was browsing CNN.com i found this article on Mr. Rogers, entitled: 15 reasons Mr. Rogers was best neighbor ever. 1. Even Koko the Gorilla loved him. Most people have heard of Koko, the Stanford-educated gorilla who could speak about 1000 words in American Sign Language, and understand about 2000 in English.
What most people don't know, however, is that Koko was an avid Mister Rogers' Neighborhood fan. As Esquire reported, when Fred Rogers took a trip out to meet Koko for his show, not only did she immediately wrap her arms around him and embrace him, she did what she'd always seen him do onscreen: she proceeded to take his shoes off!
2. He made thieves think twice. According to a TV Guide piece on him, Fred Rogers drove a plain old Impala for years. One day, however, the car was stolen from the street near the TV station. When Rogers filed a police report, the story was picked up by every newspaper, radio and media outlet around town.
yesterday i dreamt of Henry Rollins (which isn't that unusual) but in my dream he had joined up with some LOUSY Christian band and they were going on tour with a group of mayors from around the country!
i dont' know but i'm guessing that Hank is more of an agnostic, than a Christian. i haven't a clue about his religiosity. i simply lust after him and enjoy his sarcastic sense of humor. did i mention that i lust after him? yes, i carry great lust in my heart for him (thanks jimmy c!). have you seen him? how could you not?--but i digress.
i took a few friends to go see him. the only folks who showed up were some old Hank fans and the thing that was cool about this was we got to talk with him DURING the show. because the show sucked. i turned to one of my dream friends and said "man, i so prefer to keep my rock pure. Christians just suck the fun out of everything." i was actually irritated that Hank had "found God" and became a Christian. eve…
it was a giant "high" the first few Sundays. the numbers at church nearly doubled their normal attendence. i knew that they would drop after people had checked out the new girl. no big deal.
the past 2 weeks attendence was down by about 25. still higher than the past few years but it felt awful just the same. i know that it's not about "me" but i can't seem to keep from worrying that i simply am not a good preacher and i will "run the church into the ground" or something crazy. my insecurities have kicked in hard.
thankfully, i was invited over to help "put up corn" this afternoon. it was great fun learning about blanching, corn cutting techniques, and how to properly freeze the corn. it really was! i met more of the church family and had a great time talking and listening to their stories.
now i can "put up corn" on my own and the sweet corn we couldn't finish eating tonight will not go to waste…
everytime i read this book i am reminded of how lucky/blessed i am to be in ministry. sometimes it's easy to get bogged down in all the "shoulds"/"have-to's"/etc but this book reconnects me with the JOY! it continually reminds me that my call to ministry comes from JOY and this wonderful chance to share the love and light of God.
when i was an elementary school kid, my aunt and uncle lost their minds. God bless them, i think it came out of a good place but was quickly warped. they were entirely concerned about the eternal souls of every person in the world. at my grandmother's funerals they placed "tracts" in people's purses and wallets. for my best friend's "graduation" (sorry, can't remember what it's really called) from catechism cla…
yesterday we went to a "mandatory fun"/"clergy picnic" thing. as the DS was saying he understood that the next 30 minutes or so would be boring for the kids and they might want to run around and that would be okay with him. (he is a nice guy and a grandfather). then it dawned on him that it might be boring for the spouses as well.
that's all he needed to say and Joel popped up and ran out of the room. it was very funny, cute, and embarrassing. Joel and Ainsley ran out into the hallway leaving Val and Merk sitting at the table with me dumbfounded. after 5 minutes or so i urged them to go and play outside with their dad.
he had a good time with the other clergy spouses, and apparently they appreciated his setting the precedent to leave early. i'm not sure what the DS thought about it. but he is a good guy so i can't imagine he was upset by it. i was more embarrassed because this was our introduction to the district we're now in.
today's preaching was TERRIBLE! seriously--i'd been working all week on a sermon but never actually got anything written down. it was a crazy week and nothing seemed to go the way i had planned nor intended. nothing major--just little stuff all of the time.
so i had completed sermon prep all week but no sermon. this morning at 5am i wrote my sermon. i delivered one at 8:45am and another 10am. i think the one at 8:45 was probably better than the one at 10. a cute little old man even complained--"if i wasn't going to preach on the scripture read why bother reading it?"
i was glad to know someone was at least listening and being honest with me. that's a good thing. i had been preaching explicitly about one of the texts--the wheat and the tares-- but had also been talking about Jacob. i'm pretty sure this is where i got lost.
i read the lectionary text but then told the story about how Jacob had tric…
RevHRod writes: If you are a regular reader of Songbird's blog, you know that "The Princess" has requested a new name. Her older brother changed his "secret identity" a while back and now this lovely young lady is searching for a new name on her mother's blog. This got me to thinking. How do we come up with all of these names? There must be at least a few good stories out there.In honor of the Princess I have posted a picture of one of my favorite members of fictional royalty, Robert Munch's "Paperback Princess." She is a brave young woman who doesn't need anyone else to fight her battles. And she knows that what is most important isn't tiaras and finery but what's on the inside. If you haven't read this little fairy tale, I highly recommend it. But I digress. 1.So how did you come up with your blogging name? And/or the name of your blog? hipchickmamma was my very first blogger identity--i was inspired by my friend Wendy 's…
i cannot believe how crazy this week has been! the past two weeks have been very busy, but this week has felt insane.
it's a great kind of insane but still, i'm tired!
i hope that i will find a rhythm soon, otherwise i'm in big trouble. =)
i had been planning to make a kansas city visit this coming weekend but now i'm not sure that wil actually work out.
how in the world do you just slow down? i'm totally enjoying it but i also don't want to go crazy. it feels like it comes in spurts. one week will feel slow and then the next week (or two) will be nuts.
it seems as if i'm beginning to feel like i "have a handle on things" my world gets turned upside down and i'm scrambling to figure things out again.
absolutely loving it, just wish i had a routine. being a *tad* ADD means that routine helps me calm down and be productive. i've felt productive but scattered. strange. anyway, i better get back to work on my sermon. we have a FULL…
i have removed my previous posting of this. it was angry and bitter and i was lashing out. i hate that sometimes i use this blog to vent. sometimes venting isn't really productive. at least, venting where you are "safe" but can injure others isn't very cool. i apologize for doing this. i am ashamed of myself.
rather, i think i can vent without hurting anyone else and possibly you can offer me some guidance.
i've been praying and attempting to heal a dark spot in my life. there are these people i love but have struggled to "like" recently. the rift occurred/occurs in regards to our religious understandings. those seem to be the bloodiest and most painful. if i'm honest with you and myself it's probably because most of us want to be right. i'm terrible, i want to be right and to be liked and loved.
i was informed that these people i love cannot really respect me and my beliefs because their beliefs assure them that they are correct and…
today i drove up to a little hospital where 2 people from the churches were/are. as i was driving i became overwhelmed with gratitude.
this morning i preached 2 services at 2 churches about God's amazing love and grace. i visited a few people in the nursing home who abosolutely make me light up just thinking about them. and as i drove i admired the beauty of God's wondrous creation.
tears began streaming from my eyes. tears of joy and gratitude. never could/would i have dreamt that God would call me into ministry. never would i have dreamt/imagined that i would love it this much.
i was filled with joy and a peace that i can find no words--only thoughts and memories of Jesus' words "peace i give to you, but not the world's kind of peace" (my own paraphrase). what grace it was to feel this peace. what a joy it is that i get to serve God by sharing God's love and i actually get paid for this!
i realize that there will be rough times ahead. i'm not …
after exploring the refuge my mom tricked me into driving out to a casino. she has a bit of a gambling addiction--thankfully not full blown, i just like to tease her about it. some folks go to movies, shows, blog, etc but she loves to go play bingo and gamble.
we all have our vices so when i finally caught on to her reason for wanting to go to Rulo, NE, i kept driving. it's not very far from here at all and to the horror of both of us there is a rather frightening looking bridge going into Rulo. i doubt my mom will bother to go back. Rulo is a sad looking town, we drove through it on our way to the casino. i walked in with her but came out to the car after she lost $20. i can't stand to watch her throw her money away. (but i'll let her take me out to dinner, buy a baby gate so our blind Wishbone doesn't fall down the basement stairs, etc) so i went out the car and made a few phone calls--amazingly there was reception! she didn't stay long. (thanks mom!) afterwards we …
joel and the girls left thursday for Grand Junction, CO. cousin Katie got married on the 5th and tomorrow they will be going to some cabins in the mountains with joel's 2 sisters, their families and parents. part of me really wishes i would have gone or at least planned to go out for the cabins. yet, here i am enjoying my day. i miss my girls and wonderful husband terribly. they won't be back until friday and the cabins will likely not have any cell phone reception. that is probably a good thing. anyway, joel and the girls left and my mom arrived that afternoon. we realized that it has not been just the two of us since merkin was born. we had a great time, a terrific time. i'm so grateful that she came out. i thought she was being dramatic and worrisome, wanting to come out since it would only be my 2nd week at the new appointment. i am eternally thankful that she did because i haven 't laughed so much with my mom in far too long.
this morning i woke up early for the first time in a month. it's been delightful! the weather is gorgeous and i love the silence (although since we haven't had a tv, it's quiet more often than not around here).
i've been reading a variety of blogs and it's been great fun. one of the things it has reminded me is how slacker i've been with the news and staying "up-to-date" upon the affairs of the world.
i've also remembered how when i began blogging one of my intentions was to share my feminist perspectives. other than occassionally referring to God as She, i haven't done so. all the blogging as of late has been purely personal--which is fine. i love reading others' personal blogs and now that we've moved away from some terrific friends it's especially good to have a personal blog. that said, i would like to start being "substantial" at least from time to time.
it's unbelievable how many great blogs are out "there&quo…
I got this over at Iris' place. This is from something called 'The Big Read', from the NEA came up with a list of their top 100 books and they estimate that the average adult has only read 6 of these books. I will highlight the ones I've read. Cut and paste into your blog and let us know which you've read.
1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen 2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien 3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte 4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling 5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee 6 The Bible 7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte 8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell 9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman 10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens 11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott 12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy 13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller 14 Complete Works of Shakespeare (not the complete works though!) 15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier 16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien 17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks 18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger 19 The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger 20 …
1. Barbeque's or picnics ( or are they essentially the same thing?) bbq's because they tend to mean a group of family and friends enjoying one another's company at one's home. you sit around, listen to some good music, talk, have a few ritas or brews. sounds delightful. and if the bugs are really bad you can easily take it all inside. 2. The park/ the lake/ the beach or staying at home simply being? all of the above? sounds fabulous, each and every one of them! since it's just me and me madre today we're taking a nap (she is, i cleaned up the kitchen and am now enjoying the quiet time and blogosphere!), later tonight we'll head up to the park for some amusements and fireworks in our new town. we had a yummy lunch there an hour or so ago. but how i'd love to be at the lake or beach as well! 3. Fireworks- love 'em or hate 'em? both! they are absolutely beautiful and lots of fun to shoot them off but i also cringe at the lound bangs…
most of this evening i've had the sponge bob square pants song "best day ever" running through my head. today has been one of the very best days of my life thus far! seriously!
this morning began with some nerves and jitters. lots of tearing through boxes attempting to find our dress clothes and the right shoes to go with the clothes. we never found the shoes!
the "pasture church" came into town so that i wouldn't have to do 2 services on my first day--how sweet is that? prior to the service there was a coffee time in our honor. we met a lot of people--all very kind and sweet.
despite my jumping in at some of the wrong places and having to be reminded that we still needed to do the offering, the service went very well! it felt so good knowing that this was "my church." not "my church" in a possessive sort of way but it is where i'm supposed to be, i'm not filling in for anyone, it's "my church." does that mak…
i am absolutely amazed by today and the previous 4 days as well.
right now it's 9:15 and the girls are still outside playing hoops with a very sweet kid from church who lives in the neighborhood. their chicken noodle soup is cold and their "soda on the side" is probably hot by now. it is a beauty to behold and listen to their conversations. i don't want to call them in because i am enjoying it tremendously!
living here in MC is tremendously different from living in Kansas City. TREMENDOUSLY DIFFERENT! the kids are safe to walk around town, walk to the swimming pool on their own. our first night here, joel and i realized that the door to the basement was unlocked. we went back to sleep rather than go and lock the door! that NEVER would have happened before. don't worry, i know that things can happen here, it's just so enjoyable and lovely to let the girls have some freedoms that they couldn't in KC.
"I am feeling like playing hooky, and I'm putting off sermon prep till tomorrow. It is a beautiful, sunny day at my place. So come on outside and let's play a summer Friday Five!This post is loosely based on previous "wordy" Friday Fives from Reverend Mother and Songbird. I liked the results, and so we are doing another word association . Theirs were based on words from a lectionary text. Mine comes from the Lovin' Spoonful song, "Summer in the City."Think summer......are you there? Below you will find five words or phrases. Tell us the first thing you think of on reading each one. Your response might be simply another word, or it might be a sentence, a poem, a memory, a recipe, or a story." You get the idea:
1. rooftop: sunbathing 2. gritty: ick! 3. hot town (yeah, I know, it's two words): NYC 4. night: lightening bugs 5. dance: lots of fun with beauty personified
it seemed to take so long to get to this "place" and now it's merely days away!
tomorrow is our "see you soon" party--we couldn't bare calling it a "good-bye" party. so that means i have TONS to do around the house (as well as write a few things for the new church newsletter!) so i really should stop playing around on the computer! ugh! procrastination is an evil beast!
it's also exciting that we'll be picking out paint colors for the parsonage this afternoon! currently it's all white so i'm excited about adding some splashes of colors. we'll be painting it on Sunday and Monday before anything gets moved in. it will be much easier than waiting til after we get our stuff in.
this is what my office looks like right now! i have just a few things of my own thus far but i'm sure it will fill up quickly. the bookshelves are mostly bare because there was only one box of books out that i could reach. on the desk is a Frida Kahlo box/stack of notes and a hoops and yoyo button that we're probably going to put on my door (they yell stuff like "helloooo! hellooo! did it hurt when you fell from heaven?" and other goofy stuff, that will be my doorbell!). yesterday Merkin and i went up for a few meetings and to look around the house, settle in the office a bit. SweetiePie (the church secretary--not a great name but that's exactly what she is!) helped me know a bit more about the administrative and paper work aspects of being the pastor (ick! i've got a LOT to learn about that!). she also took us to lunch where we met approximately 25 folks from the church! this is the warmest small town i've ever been to! SweetiePie gave us tours of the to…
i doubt i'll be in the blogosphere for the next few weeks or so (of course, whenever i say this i tend to start blogging even more!) we're moving in approximately 10 days and i've got to stop procrastinating and get to it! we're also having a "see you soon" party for the girls and their friends (i'm thinking we just might invite our adult friends too!). so we'll be really busy.
know that we are fine, just busy and i'll check back in as soon as i can!
driving home from annual conference we drove by this sign, then turned around and came back to see if our eyes had decieved us. i had to take a picture. joel suggested that i go inside and ask what kind of gun but i thought that would take the fun out of it. i didn't want to know. i do wonder how many folks stop in just to see what this is about. great marketing ploy or simply more crazy Missourians?
A.C. was good. i had the chance to get to know the lay leader at the church where we'll be going in 2 weeks and 1 day (that's the countdown according to Val). i am excited and terrified and not terrified all at once.
since this is my first time i'm wondering how to nicely ask for a few things or at least find out if i can do them. the first thing they said when they showed me the office was that we could change the wall colors, take down the corkboard, do other stuff. the only thing i'd like to do is change the color. is this something i do or they do?
1. How important is the "big picture" to you, do you need a glimpse of the possibilities or are you a details person? i would say that i'm good with the "big picture" and imagining the possibilities. sometimes i enjoy the details but mostly that's just not me. i tend to get more excited about the big picture and it seems that often the details keep us from being able to see it. details can be fun and interesting but we have to be careful not to get hung up on them.
2. If the big picture is important to you how do you hold onto it in the nitty gritty details of life? that's a great question. it could definately explain why i'm always running late--the nitty gritty details simply pass me by. i'm terrible with them--my house for example is a disaster (which we've got to change since we'll be moving into a parsonage!) because in the overall scheme of things it simply doesn't matter. to be honest, i probably use the big picture to dismiss …
first of all, i don't like our dog. i'm not really a pet person (i keep saying these things in hope that it would make me stop worrying and caring about the silly dog). Wishbone is the best dog ever! he is terribly sweet and loving. as Valerie and Ainsley learned to walk they would pull themselves up on him. he would just let them, never nipping at them nor barking. we would try to prevent the girls from doing so but as other 'rents will attest it's impossible to always keep your kiddos in line. he's a wonderful dog--sweet, loving, and kind. he's around 9 years old and getting "old" too soon. this year he has developed diabetes and has a moderate hear murmur as well. we've been working on getting his insulin dosage just right but so far i don't think we've hit that perfect number. he was into the vet about two weeks ago to get his blood levels checked out. the doc noticed that he was beginning to have cataracts. last night we …
it's not too often that i post a book on the blog, but i have really enjoyed this book. it's a book for youth ministers but i've found that many books for youth ministry also work with adults with a few minor changes and sometimes not any at all.
additionally, i'm not a huge fan of Zondervan publishing--which this book is. so perhaps that's why i'm posting it.
i'll admit it. i haven't even finished it. however, i have flipped through it and i love many of the prayers i've read. they are in plain english and varied but include many for those times when you just want to quit as a youth minister (or any other kind of minister i'd guess). they name and voice the frustrations i've faced and pray for guidance beyond that.
it also includes a variety of services, including a memorial service for a youth member--i can't even imagine how difficult that would be.
the book is written by Steven L. Case, and i know nothing about him. i suppose i could go…
the cheeky chaplain has scolded me for not blogging so since i've been procrastinating anyway i thought i might as well blog. besides, perhaps you can point me back to work.
we've met the pastor parish committee and toured the house. everyone seems very nice and some things seem rather complicated but i can't really get into that here. we are very excited about the appointment and part of me wishes that i could just jump right in and start. however, i'm glad that is not the case.
i've been prepping to write the first 4 or 5 sermons. yesterday i went and bought a bunch of commentaries and other books that i thought would be helpful. today i've been surfing the net looking for other helps.
i did pick the scriptures for the last Sunday in June and the month of July. i am looking forward to July because i LOVE the parables! this church seems to be used to having only one scripture read. for July i plan on going along with that. i do plan on switching the ser…
1) Are you a garage saler? i can't say that i am. i like to browse them but i'm not one of those folks who go looking for them, if a garage sale happens to be in the neighborhood then i'll check it out. 2) If so, are you an immediate buyer or a risk taker who comes back later when prices are lower? immediate 3) Seriously, if you're not a garage saler, you are probably not going to want to play this one.(That wasn't really #3.)3) This is the real #3: What's the best treasure you've found at a yard or garage sale? i bought an old dresser for $3 and then turned it into a bookshelf and repainted it. i love it and my hubby does not. i want to take it when we move and he wants to put it to the curb! ugh! 4)If you've done one yourself, at church or at home, was it worth the effort? absolutely NOT! we've had a few and i've hated nearly every minute of it! it is amusing to look back on it because as Joel's pricing goes down as the day wears on…
yesterday we took a drive to the town in which we'll be moving soon. it looks like a charming and nice place to be. even though it's very small it has several parks and something like 7 churches!
our camera was dead so unfortunately i can't share pictures yet. i'm not sure what's up but i can't find the right words to describe it. perhaps my day of wordsmithing are behind me. i certainly hope not!
it's green. very green. there was a lovely breeze and the swings at one of the parks were even large enough for my behind! this park is just down from the church. i'm excited about that. one of my favorite things to do is swing. swinging is very zen for me, peaceful. how cool is that? if i'm struggling with a sermon i can simply walk down to the park and swing. lovely, absolutely lovely. perhaps i'll be lucky enough to do some pastoral care down at the swings.
on main street there are the typical older buildings that are lovely. i don'…
i realize that it is totally lame to post about a tv show.
however, i thought grey's had lost me. it had become too over the top, boring despite the crazy drama they attempted to set up. but they pulled me back in. i'm not sure if it was watching Callie be happy (and then terribly miserable and then happy again) or sending Meredith to therapy. probably a mix of both. but it drew me in.
my eyes rolled a few weeks back when Meredith set up the trials. it was easy to see that the meredith/mcdreamy rollarcoaster was going to begin yet again and another perfectly wonderful person was going to get creamed by it.
but for the first time i ever, i found myself hopeful for Meredith, cheering her on to win McDreamy back. i still find her one of the less interesting characters. she and McDreamy are not nearly as fun to watch as McSteamy, Callie, Yang, or Bailey. i totally love Bailey. i want to grow up to be Bailey. doesn't everybody?
i'm excited to watch season 5. i know there will b…
when i was 5 or 6 years old, i had a poetry book that i loved to read. i have no clue who the author was or even the title of the book (otherwise i would search the world high and low to find it). i can still see the illustrations in my mind. it was definately a 60's/70's artist as the person used fabulous colors, used thick ribbons of it to color and swirl around the page. the faces of the people in the book tended to be long and rounded, just slightly cartoonish. i think if i ever saw it i would recognize it immediately. i'm not sure if i loved it for the pictures or the poetry, i think i loved them both. one of the poems was about a candlestick--perhaps it was even jack jumping over the candlestick. i wish i knew. by all means if any of this sounds familiar to you (this was in the years between 1977-1980) please leave a comment! i'd love any hints or ideas as to what to look under so i could find it again.
Mary Magdalene, my inspiration for ministry. Jessie Hopeless is AMAZING! Jessie is awesome to work with. She's compassionate, funny, tells hilarious stories, and totally rocks! She is an artist beyond measure!Thanks Jessie!(wow, i just realized that she inspired me to use proper capitalization!)
i wish i had a beautiful poem to post about Mary Magdalene. but i do not. i can tell you why i felt i wanted her tattooed above my heart. Mary Magdalene had a rough life--after all, she had been possessed by demons but then Jesus came along and healed her, exorcising them from her, leaving her open to the transformative love of God. from then on she followed Jesus, she was a disciple despite the fact that she, nor any other women, have been formerly declared disciples nor apostles. however, they there were there with Jesus and the other 12. in fact, when the men deserted Jesus at the cross, the women remained. some have said Mary M. was the wife of Jesus--i tend to doubt that. i think that …
we're not going. the offer was rescinded. apparently i was "googled" and the folks didn't like my facebook, myspace, nor my blog and found it terribly offensive.
i'm not sure what the exact issue was but it's over now. i've apologized and humbled myself before my home conference and it at least looks hopeful. my d.s. was extremely pastoral and understanding.
no worries--both the family and i are doing fine. i was crushed this morning but as i remembered that i happen to like who i am, believe that God called me to ministry because of who i am and not inspite of it, it all got better.
i am relieved that this happened now rather than later. at least we did not move to "nowhere" and become totally isolated and experience the animosity they apparently felt towards me. i've lived in small towns before and know that often what folks feel about parents gets put on the children and that would have been very very very bad. mamma lions don't …
this has been a wild weekend, a wild week as well! i'm exhausted but i don't know that there will be time to catch up on sleep or rest any time soon.
saturday was spent in a lame attempt to write a sermon for today's service. this morning i finally gotten it written but when it came to deliver it, i barely made it through.
you see, today it was announced that we would be leaving. it is likely the last time that i will preach at our home church. they had already been planning a graduation party for me after church today but it turned into both a graduation and a farewell party. i'm not very good at saying good bye.
we have been a part of this church family for 10 years--through the good, the bad, and everything in between. they've helped us to raise our girls and supported me as i journeyed through seminary. i've been witness to watching several children grow up in the process. it's a beautiful blessing to watch a child transform into the early stages of adulth…
Name five places that fall into the following categories: 1) Favorite Destination -- someplace you've visited once or often and would gladly go again Cannon Beach, OR, it's one of the most beautiful and wonderful places i've ever been and there is a fantastic hotel that essentially sits on the beach. it is heavenly! 2) Unfavorite Destination -- someplace you wish you had never been (and why) i seriously don't know of a place i wish i had never been. one of my least favorite places is Branson, MO--it's like Vegas for the whole damfamily and seems to harken back to a very racist time. i don't know that it is racist but all the confederate costumes/flags and love of "baldknobbers" makes me a little queasy. 3) Fantasy Destination -- someplace to visit if cost and/or time did not matter Machu Picchu--the pictures i've seen are gorgeous and ever since i read The Celestine Prophecy many moons ago i've wanted to visit. 4) Fictional Destinatio…
i've been a student associate pastor, ie youth minister, for 4+ years in a large and very diverse metropolitan area. i'm preparing to move somewhere that is the absolute opposite. the church make-up seems to be very similiar but instead of city folk they will be ranchers and farmers. i'm sure their needs will be vastly different and yet almost identical at times. i am excited about the change
my children are enthralled with the idea of living in a small town in which they will be free to ride their bikes and explore on their own. my middle child who hates change is estatic about riding her bike to school. i couldn't imagine that everyone in our family would be so excited.
i had previously been terrified at the thought of moving to such a small place and as this appointment sinks in my fears continue to lesson and ifind myself more excited and looking forward to this change in our lives and believe it will be a tremendous blessing.