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Frustrations run amok

I've been a bad blogger and I'm not making things any better because I've come to blog out of frustration.

I shouldn't be complaining because Joel has been home more this week than any other week we've been here. Perhaps that is why tonight felt so exhausting.

Val has quite a bit of homework every night. It sucks. It really really really sucks. She's got some ADD issues but they're pretty much under control but it makes homework a huge struggle. She's a kid that needs lots of space and time to run off her energy but most of her time is spent avoiding actually completing her homework. She does ok IF i sit right by her and watch her do it. If I'm readying, working, or anything else she won't do it. It makes me crazy! I can't just sit there and watch her work or not work. EEEKKK!

There there's that thing about having 2 other kids to take care of and help with their homework.

In addition, Wednesdays are simply long days. I go to work at 8:30, leave for lunch, come back to prep and have Kids Klub, go home and fix dinner and then back at church for meetings or Bible Study and home around 8:30 or 9pm.

My wonderful secretary has resigned. She's been working too much between the church and her work at the school. It's a good call for her. It seems that we won't be replacing her. They aren't expecting me to simply take over all that she does (that would be way bad!), they are reasonable about that but they are expecting volunteers to do the rest. They do want to give me a raise so I guess that is good. Truthfully, I'll miss her input. She's not leaving the church so I'm probably being over dramatic about it right now.

Kids Klub was lots of fun today. It was a great first day and we had several new kids which is fun and exciting. Sunday we begin Youth Group again. I hope it goes as well or even better.

Lastly, I'm craving ice cream. We have it in our freezer but I'm trying not to eat it. This summer I've gained at least 10lbs and need to start eating well and losing weight. Why not start on a night I'm stressed right?

Anyway, hopefully I'll get off my duff and start blogging something intelligent or at the very least interesting or entertaining.

Peace be with you.

Comments

Mompriest said…
I have sooo missed your voice. And, I totally understand that homework scenerio - been there.
Songbird said…
Getting back into the school routine is a challenge. May it smoothen out soon!
revkjarla said…
sounds like a lot, dear.
prayers for your wellness and wholeness...
and its o.k. to vent. its important!
missed you too!

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