Friday, July 31, 2009

RevGal Friday 5: Child's Play Edition (Chucky not included)

Today’s Friday Five celebrates the spontaneous child in all of us… at least the one that we admire in someone else:

1) On a scale of 1-5, with 5 being I can’t do this now I am about to jump into a pit of plastic balls at the mini-mall and 1 being I can’t do this now until I can get all of the fonts on my blog to match – where are you? unfortunately, i'd say a 2. that might be a surprise to some of you but it seems that with each time i became a new mother i lost a bit of silliness and spontaneity. i remember playing with Merkin--finger painting, crawling on the ground, building houses out of moving boxes, making up silly songs. all of that got less and less with each child. it makes me sad that Merkin was the only one to get the fun mom.

2) What is the silliest/most childlike thing you have done as an adult? hmm...probably acting like a zombie in the grocery store. i'm not sure what it is about grocery stores but they just beg me to act like a goofball. when we lived in KC we'd act like zombies or Frankenstein shopping and then run the cart to the car as fast as we could (not always but after checking for safety--of course!)

3) Any regrets? not for things i've done but that my younger girls won't have the same fun memories that Merkin will have

4) What is the silliest thing you have ever seen another adult do on purpose? at a kid's swimming party some very large men where diving off the board and into innertubes. i kept expecting someone to get stuck but it never happened. man, that was hilarious and they were having a great time.

5) What is something you wish you did when you had the chance? standing up in a super yummy restaurant and shouting "bravo! bravo!" while clapping to thank the chefs--we didn't because we were worried about possibly getting banned from the place!

BONUS: For our ‘I told you so’ sides – what thing did you skip doing and you’re really glad you did! going way back--a friend saved me from getting a really goofy tattoo

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Thank you

Thanks friends, I appreciate your kind and loving words.

It's been a long day but it was good to say good-bye and be allowed to honor my friend. Amazingly, the tears waited until after the service and committal. I was able to sit in my office and cry.

I'm anxious about the morning, looking out and seeing where she'd normally sit.

However, I am truly blessed by the love and gifts we've shared.

I appreciate your prayers and thoughts.

Tomorrow will be another whirlwind of a day. After church there is an afternoon filled with fun and friends from the church. In a town not so far away, there is a water park which only costs $2.50 to get in! So a bunch of us are headed over for some water play and relief from the heat.

Thanks be to God! Amen.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Procrastination

Tomorrow morning I'm supposed to preside over a funeral of a friend. She was/is a wonderful woman and it was unexpected. I can't seem to get myself to prepare. I've spent a few hours with her family today, they're pretty wonderful too and trust me to properly honor their mother. I'm terrified to disappoint them. I've done a few funerals now and a couple of them have been for people I've felt close to but this one is different.

This woman was my "stand-in" mother. Her door was always open for me (and many others) to come in and hide. We could just sit in silence or we'd chat it up. I wasn't her only "kid," she took in more than anyone probably imagined.

I don't want to say goodbye. I don't want to show up for church on Sunday and know that she won't be there to sit with the girls and tease Joel. She won't be there later in the week to talk. She won't be there anymore at all. I just don't want to say good-bye.

I think I needed to let it out, to just acknowledge how much this will suck. I love her and will do my best to honor her and be there for her kids, biological or otherwise.

I love you, good-bye.